Sunday, June 17, 2012

39 weeks

39 weeks 1 day.

Still Pregnant.

1cm dialated, no effacement, still high.

No contractions whatsoever.


Tuesday, June 5, 2012

37 weeks

I have been really worn down lately. Theres been a lot of pressure on my nether regions and pain that causes me to brace myself for a few minutes everytime I stand. No contractions or anything that feels like he is coming soon...just pain.

I wandered into my room yesterday determined to make my hospital bag, I have been putting it off. I managed to throw in a pair of pj pants and a nighty then got distracted wondering if his bag was fully packed. I fished it from under all the second baby shower gifts which are still in bags packed in his crib. All that was in his diaper bag were some diapers and a thing of wipes. I still hadnt put any going home outfit in there. So that distracted me more and I started emptying the bags, throwing 3-6 and 6-9 onsies in seperate piles on the bed and setting other random things places (bath sets, books, toys). After about 30 minutes I got overwhelmed and wandered out and ended up sleeping on the couch. I am so overwhelmed. Theres so much to organize I just look at it and give up. I need to spend maybe 15 minutes a day organizing. I need to pack our bags first, maybe that will be my 15 minute endevour today. Print a list of what I need for our bags, just go buy what I dont have (extra socks, undies etc). I have been stressing about the bags more lately, my house is so unorganized I wouldnt even know where to tell someone to look to grab clothes should i be rushed to the hospital. Maybe once my bags are packed I will feel more able to take on the less essential stuff.

Friday, June 1, 2012

37 weeks

It's so easy to get caught up in all the bad parts of pregnancy. The constant sore pelvic region, the constantly having the pee, the flailing like a beached whale to get out of bed....it's been hard for me to get to know the little human inside of me. Sure he kicks and punches me around the same time everyday but he cant talk to me. He cant tell me how he's feeling, if he's comfy...or what his favorite show is. Right now he is an entity inside of me that I am trying my hardest to keep comfy until it's time for him to make his entrance.

In getting caught up in all the body changes it's hard to feel a connection with the little life inside of me. I talk and sing to him, but i cant see his smile or hear his cooing. I chide him for kicking my bladder 50 times a day but to no response. Well something little happened today that gave me one of my first "awww" moments.

I popped my back and it startled him and he jumped.

Yup...thats it. Something so simple made him a LITTLE more human to me....invisible to my eyes...growing inside me.

He then fell right back asleep. I'm hoping that was a glimpse into his personality...a laid back kid...