37 weeks

I have been really worn down lately. Theres been a lot of pressure on my nether regions and pain that causes me to brace myself for a few minutes everytime I stand. No contractions or anything that feels like he is coming soon...just pain.

I wandered into my room yesterday determined to make my hospital bag, I have been putting it off. I managed to throw in a pair of pj pants and a nighty then got distracted wondering if his bag was fully packed. I fished it from under all the second baby shower gifts which are still in bags packed in his crib. All that was in his diaper bag were some diapers and a thing of wipes. I still hadnt put any going home outfit in there. So that distracted me more and I started emptying the bags, throwing 3-6 and 6-9 onsies in seperate piles on the bed and setting other random things places (bath sets, books, toys). After about 30 minutes I got overwhelmed and wandered out and ended up sleeping on the couch. I am so overwhelmed. Theres so much to organize I just look at it and give up. I need to spend maybe 15 minutes a day organizing. I need to pack our bags first, maybe that will be my 15 minute endevour today. Print a list of what I need for our bags, just go buy what I dont have (extra socks, undies etc). I have been stressing about the bags more lately, my house is so unorganized I wouldnt even know where to tell someone to look to grab clothes should i be rushed to the hospital. Maybe once my bags are packed I will feel more able to take on the less essential stuff.